My First Day. By Josh

as all of you know today was my first day of school with eeyore (ben)
i was really surprised at how accepting everyone was of our dating its like no one even cared that were dating all the teachers didn't mind us acting bf-y the schools really small.... like 170 something and 50ish staff we have to wear uniforms which sucks pussy.... thats pretty much uit from my point of view im not to good of a writer obvi

L8RZ
JOSH

Mika Lollipop

You have to wonder what happens when the camera's not on.



I hate Mika but.... these guys are pretty cute
The guy in the silver shorts is YUMMY!!!

I love you guys!!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

Today is a very important day in my personal history. There are 3 main reasons why and like.... for some of you they might seem unimportant or weird, or stupid, or just plain wrong. But this is the best day of my life.



I sent Brent another text this morning apologizing for what I did. Brent replied after a few minutes and told me to go to his apartment, that he wanted to talk to me in person. I drove over to his place and ran up to the gate across from his apartment. He was waiting on his balcony and when he saw me he gave me that "I'm really sorry but.." look. He walked down the stairs and across the courtyard and I noticed that he looked really... down. He just said "Hi." and we walked over to his place. When we got through the door he started crying. I know it wasn't the smartest thing to do, but I hugged him and promised that I would never ever wanted to hurt him like I did, and that I always have, and always will love him. Brent will never fully forgive me, but we're talking again, and that's all that really matter.



Josh and I went to the mall today and I swear to gawd, there were at least 50 gay couples there. It was.... amazing. Like... some of you will think that that's really unimportant and that I shouldn't care. But in New Mexico there aren't very many gay couples, especially all in the same area. Idk why but... like... we could be ourselves there, there was no holding back our affection. Well, we're teenage boys, we had to hold back some, but it was more than occasionally holding hands. We didn't feel like everybody was staring at us. I felt comfortable putting my arm around his waist and kissing him. I didn't feel like people were staring when No one cared when we did all those couple-y things that most people can't stand to see, because we weren't the only gays there.
We were talking to one couple in their 20's and they told us that they've been together since they were our age. I squeezed Josh's knee under the table we were sitting at and half-whispered "Das wird uns in Kürze." Which means, more or less, "That's going to be us soon" I was getting ready to cry when Josh did the most amazing thing in the entire world. HE ASKED ME TO MARRY HIM!!!
I know I know. We're too young, some of you think it's just a phase, some of you are just haters. But I know that Josh and I are going to be together for the rest of our lives, because when I look into his eyes, I don't see anything but our undying for each other. Josh is my soul mate. He is love and he is all I need*. I know how much hate I'm going to get from this, but it's all worth it. I'm going to get married to Josh as soon as it's legal. All of you non-haters are invited. Just save the date- sometime after 2-25-2014 (My 18Th B-day). We're still working out some of the kinks, Who wears black, who wears white? Who is given away? Will New York allow gay marriage by then? But we have about 4 1/2 years to plan so this mofo's going to be fairytale!
I gots to go now!




I Love You Guys!!

*That's from a song by Parachute... kinda



PS Josh's first day at school with me is tomorrow, wish us luck!
PPS Josh is spending the night too, wish me luck! Lol

Why?

Why do some of you still not trust me. I was talking to a couple fellow bloggers on twitter and, I admit we shouldn't have done this but, we started to talk about some pervy stuff. We were only joking about all of it, I would never consider doing that with anyone but Josh. But obviously you guys don't think so. One of the guys I was talking to was basically called a creeper by one of you because he said he would huggle with me. A huggle is either a prolonged hug or snuggling, all I was talking about is a hug but apparently an adult hugging a minor is a form of statutory rape. Who knew? Not me, that's for sure! Since most conversations on twitter lead of something of that nature don't expect anything from me that's more than "Going to ...... tonight" Or is that too risque as well? Maybe you should tell me *** ***, after all you can obviously tell if a tweet has any true perverted undertones.

English Assignment

Ok, a few Weeks ago we started reading Frankenstein in English class. Today's main assignment was to write.... well I'll get to that in a minute. Mr. teacher told us "Go to page **** and read the third paragraph down." Everyone read it and he told us to read it again. "... but this time, I want you to delve deep into your pubescent teenage minds whilst reading this." We all did... it was disgusting! The paragraph was basically porn. Dr. Frankenstein was talking about sewing the monster together but it was really all about Mary Shelley's lack of getting laid. The passage consisted of sentences like- "My white light will penetrate the darkness of....." and so on. There were quite a few EWs but overall it was pretty interesting to read something seemingly innocent that was completely different. our next assignment was to write something like that.... Now, my English teacher isn't a creepy pedophile. He's just crazy. It took me around 20 minutes to write my essay. I called it 'Horses'. It was a really short 3 paragraph thing on how much I like horseback riding. I had to go up to read 3rd, I was pretty nervous because I've never considered writing like this.... or about the subject. The second paragraph was about how I really want to ride bareback sometime, no one really got what I was saying until they remembered that I'm gay. The other paragraphs were actually very innocent which might lower my grade a little but I'm not too worried about that.

I'll have a Josh/ Brent post up later. But for now....


I Love You Guys!!!!!!

He Hates Me!

Brent is probably never going to talk to me again. I sent him a picture message at around four that had a picture of Eeyore crying, Please forgive me written 100 times, and the acoustic version of 'Three Cheers for Five Years' by Mayday Parade, I know that the song doesn't have too much to do with forgiveness, hell it's a love song. But it's OUR song, Brent would sometimes play it on his keyboard and I would sing it with him. That was before all of this shit happened though. Before I fell in love with him, before I had to choose between him or Josh, before he started hating me. I got a text from him a little while later saying that I would have to find another tutor, that he couldn't see me anymore. I know I chose Josh and that Josh is the right choice, but Brent saying that to me broke my heart. I know that I can't date him, but I still need him... I don't think I can finish this.

Good News And Gooder News

For those of you who don't know. I chose Josh. Brent is furious at me and I doubt he'll ever talk to me again, but I think I deserve that.

Josh's first day of school with me is Tuesday.



I Love You Guys!!!


PS I found a new blogger at http://theydontknow-tp.blogspot.com/ He's really cool and needs more than me as a follower.